Urge to Purge

I am not referring to bulimia but referring to my constant urges to purge the various the contents I have produced on the internet. I've deleted all my Xanga blogs, which had material spanning from 2001 to 2007. I've deleted one Facebook account only to restart another one. I've deleted hundreds of reviews on Yelp and gone incognito.  I just have a constant desire to purge whatever I put out on the internet. Oftentimes when I re-read what I have written, I think about how stupid the stuff I've written and just feel the need to delete it; I'm constantly washing myself of my dirt (or stupid writings) and attempting to start afresh, only to repeat myself over and over again. I do regret deleting a lot of the stuff I've deleted, which is why I've started blogging again. So much of my history has been erased. I would love to re-read my old Xanga entries to see how much I've changed over the years. From now on, I will resist the urge to purse and keep whatever bits of text I throw out into the cyber world. I will try to choose my words as wisely as possible but at the same time, I will not take myself too seriously. I just need to find a good balance between just throwing nonsensical noise out there and spending hours trying to compile ingenious works of art. I think part of me constantly becomes ashamed of the persona I've created online causing me to constantly attempt to recreate a better version of myself, but I need to just accept who I am with all my flaws.