Neurosis Be Gone!

The older I've become, the more neurotic I've become. When it comes to making decisions from choosing a job or what food to eat, I've become more indecisive and more analytical all my decisions. The early jobs I've chosen in high school were chosen without much thought. I didn't do extensive internet searches about every little thing the jobs entail. I didn't look up the potential health hazards. I just thought, "I'm going to do this job to make some money." And that was it. Nowadays, choosing a job involves extensive research of various aspects of the job. I've essentially added many more variables to consider for nearly every decision. Part of this indecisiveness and compulsion to do extensive research stems from the expansion of information available on the internet coupled with past bad decisions that have caused negative consequences. Over the years, I've experienced certain health issues stemming from poor decisions in the past. From drug use damaging my brain, to listening to loud music causing tinnitis, I've come to a point where I don't want to damage my health anymore than necessary, as I know how compromised health can deteriorate my quality of life. Also, after having an appendectomy, I've become more aware about the fragility of life and how it's important to make health lifestyle changes in order to reduce the fragility of life.

It's good to do research and do one's due diligence when making decisions, but one can get overly caught up in the decision making process which can lead to great mental distress. I need to just do the research then make a decision without endlessly going back and forth between choices. Making a decision requires a degree of faith of a certain outcome, but there's no guarantee things will turn out as expected. I need to learn to let go of trying to have near-total control of my life and just accept whatever the outcomes of my decisions are. Life is too short to get bogged down in the decision making process.All this over-analyzing has caused mental distress, possible health problems and an overal unfulfilling life. When the mind gets stuck in analysis paralysis and gets bogged down in tedious decision-making , life feels like wearing a heavy cumbersome suit of armor that saps the enjoyment out of every moment. It's hard to breath and enjoy life when the mind is preoccupied with the endless variables of the numerous choices one can make. Neurosis be gone!